Cancer.

Why does cancer exist? Why?

When suddenly someone close is diagnosed with cancer and only has short time till he's gone, just makes you think a lot about life. Makes you break into tears and makes you ask yourself lots of questions. Just wants you to believe that it's a dream and cancer doesn't exist but unfortunately it does and there's nothing that can be done.Why does it happen to good people? I mean, i don't wish deaf on people at all because cancer is the most horrible thing that can happen i wish there was cure but there's alot of bad people out there that need to be punished but no, the most honest, nice, joyful person has to get it.
But also makes you think that life is too precious to be wasted, live to the full and don't regret because when you find out that you can only live for a few days, months, years..It gets you thinking a lot! 
Today, I just found out that someone close has been diagnosed with it and it broke me into pieces, can't stop thinking about it. I have been crying loads and the more i think about the more it will hit me hard! The most honest person who has stuck by our family and helped us through a lot of things. The person who is meant to come with me to get my first car but unfortunately that won't be happening.
I will give my whole support to him and i hope he stays with us for abit longer than he's meant to, I really admire him.

Cancer really needs a cure! 

Ivvvyy!

From my birthday till March, my life went downhill a lot. Everything was perfect until someone does everything he said he wouldn't do..I never want to see him again and now I've recovered from it. Got on with completing my college course and getting along with my friends and family. Met great people from college and I have learned a lot from bad experiences. Started talking to a nice, gorgeous boy..shame he lives far. Started driving and now, I'm half way there and I can't wait to get on the road, It's about time my life needs a change. Now its summer, I've been to Thorpe park and to a gathering/party..Its really good being with college friends and meeting other people from them. Been talking to a lot of new people recently and I'm enjoying..Not getting feelings involved for the moment, not going to go through the same thing that happened to me a while ago; well I need to know a lot about them before I get attached and open my eyes to what can happen. Hopefully going to sundown, will be lots of fun and just get on with my driving before my instructor loses it! Just really need a job! So skint and theres a lot of things that needs to be done urggh!!

Changes!

Okay so I haven't posted since December :O but I can say my life has changed. I'm not going to go on about my past but what i have done. So now I go to College..its a new life for me and I love it. Met new people and don't regret at all making that choice but I still miss my friends:/ another great thing, I have met someone special it has been a year but at this point we are closer than ever, I love being with him, the cuddles, the kissing just everything about him. What would be my life without him at the moment. He's different from every boy that I have met, he makes me feel special and makes me so confident no one has done that before :') My life is going great just hope I don't mess things up this time..Can't think of anything else

Living my life!'xx

Living my life.. How is it living my life?
Well what can i say i have been upset and happy.
Still don't no who my true friends are,
I love how i never wanted to see my dad again because of what happened and now, since i have been with him, i loved every minute of it, i want to go there now, love it to pieces. Got to say one of the best moments ever.
Family, well they are okay.. Can piss me off or make me really happy, By the end of the day love them to pieces, don't know what i would do without them.
Boys, Hmm...Gets harder all the time.. I think i can live without them, they have been pissing me off and i think its just better without them plus hate the ones that use me.
My life in general...Is great, ups and downs can get screwed, Nothing can put me down, i want to be better person and focus on life that's all. Live life whilst you have the chance, Never regret.
(Sorry for the language)

Just me!

How has my life been? Well what can i say. Ready to complete school and move on and start something new. Change and not regretting what has been done in the past. All i'm looking for is my happy moment when everything goes the way i want cause i'm sick of the life i'm living at the moment. So i'm going to change that but got to say i will not forget the good things that has happened to me. I'm now excited to go to the prom i'm looking forward to it and then starting college or sixth form which i hope will be good. 

The way i feel!:/x

Well what can i say today, i feel so upset and i dont no what to do anymore...Im hearing stuff thats got to do with my boyfriend and i don't even no if hes telling me  the truth and then i have my friends and family letting me down. I just dont no what to do anymore, i just feel like running away or something that will make me feel better or maybe just disappear out of this world cause im sick of my life. :'(
Whats the point me even being in this world?

S.U.M.M.E.R! 2011 x

Today was so HOT i couldnt breath and i still didnt get a sun tan on my legs :/x Ive just been with Connor and some littles kids. My arm hurts so much :/x Hmmm...I really need a party...x